Mark's two week long throat infection has now turned into my throat infection. Or tonsilitus. Or whatever. All I know is that my throat hurts like nothing else and it hurts every time I swallow and it's his fault. Azaria said she was getting a sore throat as well, which is kind of funny in a very not funny way. I feel horrible. I came home from ( Read more... )

My blood tests were all completely normal. So that means no fixable reason why I'm always so tired. Well not one that four different blood tests and a urine test can find. So I'm stuck with thinking that it's a product of my diet, which actually has improved heaps in the last few months (and I'm still just as tired), or it's a product of my lack of ( Read more... )

I'm having staying awake issues. I'm so damn tired. Not in the same way that the anti-depressants made me tired when I first started taking them though. Then I was tired all the time, I was never awake, always half asleep. I went to bed at 9pm and struggled to get out of bed at 9am when I didn't have to work. Now I'm awake all day, less tired but I ( Read more... )

Maybe I might be able to explain last night now. Only 15 or so hours after the whole incident occured.

Mark didn't hate me. He was upset, but not angry, at least not until this morning anyway. I drank one bottle of wine and shot one shot of rum, which burned the whole way down. I had four cuts on one leg, five on the other, and five little scratches ( Read more... )

I had a really, really bad headache all day today. I guess that's what happens when you go to bed angry and wake up angry. I made Mark walk up to work and bring me some codeine pain killers, because they seriously do work. I'm also not angry anymore. Work was calming, because it was a good day, and a busy day, and I got everything done pretty ( Read more... )

There are times when I really hate not having much money, but at the moment being poor is a good thing. Even if I was well off, I would not be able to afford the amount of appointments I have had lately. I'm so thankful that my doctor bulk bills me, or else I probably wouldn't have gone in the first place. Today I was at the doctor again, checking ( Read more... )

So I think I'm somewhere in between really tired, happy, hopeful, disappointed, depressed, thoughtful, sick and bored. All in all it makes for a weird feeling.

I didn't go out last night. I spent the night with Precious. And no, we didn't have sex. And no, that's not the reason I'm disappointed.

The Nutrimetics party was good, except I was the only ( Read more... )

Today was my appointment. After the last few days it felt like I needn't bother going, because since Saturday things have been going well. Saturday wasn't that good, but Sunday was amazing, and yesterday wasn't too bad. I kept the appointment though, it wasn't really in my thoughts to cancel it. Even though I don't feel it, I still know that I'm ( Read more... )

So now I've taken that first step and there's no taking it back now. Today I went to the doctor and admitted what I'd known for so long, that no one else knew at all. Well that no one else knew until some weird twist of fate caused me to screw up and break a friendship and then two worlds collided and suddenly I was lost because people knew what I' ( Read more... )

I've got a doctor's appointment for next Wednesday. It was the earliest I could get, seeing as it's not urgent and I don't want to take away from people who have colds and flus and just want certificates for work. That's why there needs to be a free clinic in town, so that those people can go there and I can get into my doctor for something serious ( Read more... )